well here you are. it's almost the end of 2013 and you're sitting in your little apartment watching the rain fall in florida. you're having one of those "i can't believe i live in florida moments" and watching law and order svu. typical sunday. can you believe it one year from now? i hope you come back, on december 30th of 2014 and read this letter. maybe you'll laugh, maybe you'll cry.
dear me one year from now, i hope you get your confidence back. i hope you do it by becoming the best you that you can be. i hope you it's not all "talk" this year. run like you're flying. go to the gym to get strong not skinny. i hope you finally tried cross fit and hot yoga and PR'd a half marathon. i hope you do even more than that and when you look in the mirror you smile and say "man, this is who i wanted to be". i hope you got healthy in every way possible. do it and don't give up. i hope you finally feel beautiful.
dear me one year from now, i hope you joined every little thing at work. every club, every volunteer event, every meeting. i hope you stayed positive, focused and determined. and i hope right now you have an idea, a contact and a dream of where your next move will be, and i hope you go for it. i hope every single day you still look at the sky and think "i can't believe i work for the walt disney company".
dear me one year from now, i hope you find your light again. i hope when you smile it is from the heart and you mean it. i hope you laugh from your gut, find new music, dance at concerts and find peace in new friends. go out there and make friends that are as close as family and lovers that kiss you deep. don't hole up in your apartment because it is safe and secure. i hope you ventured out and i hope you were brave.
dear me, your heart was broken. pretty bad, huh? i hope where you are now it doesn't sting anymore. i hope when your breathe in deep it doesn't feel like there are holes any more. i hope you finally have peace and comfort and closure. and i hope you finally realize it wasn't you at all.
and , if you're with someone again. i hope you are surrounded in love and trust. i hope he laughs as hard as you do, has nothing reserved and you know deep inside he means as well as you do. i hope he loves scooby and benny and gus, smiles as big as you do when you talk about your nieces and knows the happiness of eating popcorn and watching the fireworks on main st. and if he's not all of those things, move on. you don't deserve another minute of just average and you deserve someone who is the one.
make peace with your past so it won't disturb your present.
what other people think of you is none of your business.
time heals everything, so give it time.
no one is in charge of your happiness, except you.
don't compare your life to others, you have no idea what their journey is about.
stop thinking so much, it's alright to not know the answers, they will come when you least expect it.
smile. you don't own all the problems in the world.